Monday, March 21, 2011

Is This Worth It?

Right now I’m wondering why the world I decided to go back to school.

My current class is challenging (and not in a good way). 35% of my grade depends on a group project and so far, only one of my group members (besides me) has attempted to communicate with the rest of the group. We have an assignment that we are supposed to do together this week (online) and so I’m starting to get a little nervous.

Then last week, I found out that two of my classes had been scheduled at the exact same time and instead of being 7-8 weeks like the rest, they were now 5 weeks. Thankfully, when I emailed the school to see if one of them would be offered again before next summer, they gave me the option of replacing it with another course.

Then I discovered today that tuition fees have gone up by almost $400 per class, so now I have to try to get a $1,300 increase on my student loan…which has me somewhat panicked because there is no guarantee that I will be able to find a job right away after I finish. And it’s looking less and less likely that finding a job that won’t require a move to a new state will be possible. Which then gets me to thinking about all the stuff that would need to be done to my house before I could sell… AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

When I try to pray about it, I start thinking about it, and I start to panic all over again.

So I find myself sitting here wondering what in the world I was thinking going back to school?  Do I think its worth it?  Ask me in a year.


Sarah said...

yes, it is worth it. And I will pray for you, even if you can't right now!! I will start with praying for peace.

You can do this, Stacey, I have no doubt!!

Alyssa said...

I say it's worth it too! Keep on keeping on!